Zamzam took the kids to the museum today and I met them on my lunch break. It was fantastic, the museum has added new building centers just perfect for Van. and Esther is old enough now to interact with all the exhibits; she wants to press every button and turn every knob. It was great fun.
I knew when they stopped for lunch I would need to head back to work, so I played with the kids while Zamzam got the food ready, but told Van I would be leaving soon, although they could stay and play the rest of the day.
I gave Van and Esther each 4 pennies and told them to make wishes in the fountain. First Van said, "I wish for another puppy." Then I told him you can't tell people your wishes. He threw in some more pennies.
"Wait I made one more wish I want to tell you about, I wished you would never have to go to work again."
This always makes me feel terrible of course, should I be working? Is it psychologically damaging to him? I wonder how he'll feel about it when he's older. Will he encourage his wife to stay home, remembering how much he missed his mom?
Or will it be as other people have told me, they remember not wanting their mom to work at the time, but then they were happy for her and her career later.
I don't know.
I wish I knew!
On the one hand he is the most important thing to me in the world so I want to take his request very seriously. On the other hand, when I think of all the other things I imagine he would wish for right now: to eat only chocolate, to never wear clothes again, to have a new puppy, to have a pet horse, to stay up all night, to ride his bike on the roof, I wouldn't consider letting him do those things just because he really wants to.
When I think of his request in those terms it makes me laugh, which is helpful to reduce the stress of the subject. Hopefully you'll turn out ok kid. Your mom does love the heck out of you.
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