9/9/16

I can't sleep.

I am so sad.

I don't know what to tell Van when he wakes up in a couple hours.

I'm even more sad for Esther who takes in the world around her and turns it all into 'rules'. What 'rules' is she going to learn over the next 4 years? How can I explain to her that someone who treats people so terribly can be elected president? That a woman no matter how qualified or prepared can be overlooked and slandered. I wanted a world for her where anything was possible and now I don't know what kind of world it is.

I haven't cried this much in a long time.